How could I be so hopeful and trusting I gave you my heart but you were just lusting I thought maybe sometime I could finally prevail I should have known better shoulda listened to detail Its my own stupid fault for breaking my heart Never quite understanding I was left in the dark Seems everybody knew you had feelings for her Everybody but me but now Im so sure that my hoping was wasted as you told me so often Now I believe you but I wish I could soften the blow that was dealt to my fragile pride Something inside me has curled up and died The illusion has drifted away just like smoke And I seem to find myself at the butt of the joke Yet through all this I still foolishly love you Wish I could turn off my emotions for you